| When I woke up Goltis was not in his bunk. I
jokingly asked "Is Goltis still alive?" and Anatoli replied: "Yes, there he
lies in his bunk, can't you see him?" Today Goltis is looking like an old man.
I have seen the way that he moves around in the old age home and I have smelt
his breath before in the cancer unit. He has made himself appear at least 30
years older in the last two weeks. Except for his eyes. You can easily mistake
him for a much older man if you do not look into his eyes. During the daily
check up we had a discussion on what is behind his drive to continue in his dry
fast. He says that at this stage prayer is keeping him sane. He wants to drink
the ocean. I can feel his bones as he sits next to me. Barely two weeks ago I
remember his impressive muscles move next to me as he leaned over to pass the
salt on the table. How this man has faded away in front of my eyes. He still
persists in his own way and brushes my fears for his health aside. He states
that he has to go through this acidic crises and then he can start drinking. He
says that when this crises is over his breath with stop to smelling like
acetone. I am just concerned that his breath will stop smelling because he is
not breathing anymore... |
